Booking in again. I really dont feel like it but Im thankful that my platoon still isnt that bad. His power and miracles was shown to me, what He could do and what man couldnt. If God is for me, who else can be against me?

Beautiful music is the art of prophets that can calm the agitations of the soul; it is one of the most magnificent and delightful presents God has given us. -Martin Luther

im booking in today. Hai i dont want to…..

Just when i say i’ll go on a hiatus. I want to pen this down.

Yesterday’s daily bread left such an impact that right now, above all, only Jesus matters.

Political tussles, human errors, human arguements, human thoughts.

Im so sick of them. Never realised im emotionally drawn into it.

Ive always trying to find the right side to lean on but is there a right one for me to be on? The side that i should be on is Jesus’. Thats all it matters.

Head and the tail. Neither of them are 100% correct. We all have our own weakness and errors. But one thing i loathed is that they’re repeating whats happening 2 years ago. And they dont see that.

Freedom is in my Jesus.

The Lord gives and the Lord takes.

Right now I’ve digested in 100% that it’s just another moulding season for whats going to come next;even though i knew it. Everything is given then stripped and taken away. And blessings are coming which i’ve to perserve and I praise God for it.

I’ve started to experience some of the blessings. As when i gave freely, i’ve been blessed back with no conditions.

Yahweh, Yahweh, Yahweh.

Shalom to you all

Im feeling kinda upset right now. I finally achieved some things i once wanted so badly, but yet everything is crumbling right in front of my bare eyes.

Sigh, disappointed, sad, anguished.

Yet above all i understand there’s a higher calling for these things. I cant do anything. I cant, I cant.

But here i just want to say i love all of you people(:

Goodbye. Think i’ll go on a hiatus. Till then.

Passion reignited.

I get the gist of the situation, but why arent we doing anything to change it? It’s so frustrating. I cant do anything. Questions popping out;”Why cant we see it? Why cant we understand it? How did we ended up like this?”

It’s so sad, the fun we once had, the passion, the driving force thats moving us. Where is that all right now?

Things foretold, is it all a lie?

RAH what am i doing. What have i done. There’s no room for regrets. Forgiveness is all i seek. Repentance is what i need.

SAVE ME.

Worship practice is excruciating today. I have never felt so empty, dry and down before.

I need time off. I’m spiritually drained to nothing. I need time to stand up again, I need time to heal, Im really tired this time. I really wonder if it’s my problem. If it is tell me God. I dont know what to do. What is the right thing now? What do you want us to do?

I dont want to serve till I forget about Your heart. Let this worship team understand Your heart, Your will and Your love.

Whats that bugging feeling. Rahh

A letter

Dear God,

I really dont know what to do about this issue anymore. I can feel the weird tensions/atomsphere. Im really tired. I want to give up but i know it’s wrong. Tell me what to next. You do it Your way. I’ll be happy with it even though it might be a painful and hard lesson. I praise you for the difficult times i go through and i place it all into your hands. Amen

Your servant,
Aaron

Im supposed to be asleep, getting fresh and ready for my trip to Surabaya for Asia 4 Jesus but here i am, 4.26AM blogging.

I cant sleep. Dont know why.

Lessons are being repeated. Im starting to wonder why things are moving into that perspective again. It’s like the emotional roaster 4 years ago. My body is tired, im spiritually and mentally drained.

But these i know are the trials that were set for me. It’s diffcult, hard, demanding and exhausting.

Still i want to rely on you Jesus even though i know im like a wretch for the past 1month. You never forsake me. I thank you for that.

James 1:12
12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.